were am I now?...orientation that's a useful purpose for this diary....must be a route that was taken to get here and a destination? Is it of any consequence? at times yes and that is happiness of course reaching the "place" would be ultimate happiness....rest,repose,stillness,being...home rooted.....Tree.
In between is pain....doubt,fear.The sneaking suspicion that what awaits is a void...eternal emptiness
